完美日记~

其实不是每样事情都是那么完美的，可能很少失败是因为自己太过的完美，苛刻，严谨，但，这样好像让我伤心，悲观的次数频率增加。太过于完美，让自己喘不过气。很累，真的很累。慢慢的，我在尝试放开，让自己变得更加开朗和积极。但好像又失败了~~

在医院，见过的生死概念，了解人生是如此短暂，你可能一夜离开了我，这是没办法拿捏的。因为，完美的我掌控不了。所以慢慢敞开心肠，接受了知足常乐这道理。

日记，谢谢你的空白让我填满了我的心声，那没人能理解的心声~

Disaster !

Writing seems helping me a lot...because i am not happy..

Being happy because do not want people to see the tears from me.....

Being strong seems like hard for me,but i am trying still....

Am i being myself correctly?????

Being strong in front of my family, by carrying burden around me, seems hard for me...but i try....

Sometimes it really a mentally pressure...

But why they care too much?? in wording?? 

Rachel....cry.....rachel......everything will be fine afterward....wash away all the pressure....the stress....the sadness.....wash all away.....left the only happiness by the side.....

原来不是每件事都那么完美。。。生活中y外表看是完美，也必有丑陋的一面，再怎么艰苦，和难受，我一定要勇敢面对。馥璇，坚强 ！！！

GEt up !!! I can do it !!!

Feel bad today, It just so freaking and stress up, since the final coming soon...DECP, Proposal and contextual issues... and i know I am going to make it this time. I used to to having failure in the past, yet it seems like i dunt really satisfied what i got for the last sem.This was the first time i felt so horrible..It is not a failure,dunt worry. But the problem is ....I am a perfectionist with too much of thinking "skills" (actually try to be sarcastic)  I dunt get satisfies easily especially my work.This made me to wana so much be outstanding and perfect and different in everything.Thus a special and the only topic i chosen instead of others..well, it made me off , after i receive my results... Well, this time i am not going to do something same , i had learn from that stupid mistake....Okay....It is okay...with tears......

Well,be strong xuan !!!!!! be strong....Mr. Parthiban always ask me not to be worry.....but how can i dont be worry at this time.....

Well well.......be calm and carry on !! i will pray hard and study hard....and smart...because i am not so smart, that the reason push me to work harder....

Recalled what MR. KERK said:
Grab for the opportunity, don't think much,aim for a goal,keep it well, and activate it !!!
Be patient, there is difficulties throughout life, but never give up !! and you will Success !!



Motivate!!Motivate!!!!